Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Ku Hampe...

ku hampe dgn Azmi..Even if im not ready to start a relationship wif farhan...stil i will try to luv him...he given me a chance to change n luv him...i reali dun wish to hurt him more...Farhan yesterday told me not to cry..it got no use...i kept wandering around myself..tinkin what i shud be doin now...argh!!Damn angry wif azmi...If i got a chance, i will hurt him more than he hurt me...He didnt even noe wat n how i feelings now...Time to cum i dun have anibody to lean to...even sumtimes farhan doesnt have time to pay attention to me...I understand tat he's workin...Hard thru days n night juz to sacrifice for me...Bein attention to farhan doesnt have a meaning to me..Farhan was alwaes there in my life...a Journey fren of mine...thru hard moments..i do kept tinkin y i was bein treated like tis..If onli mamat was here...tat old bestie of mine...Mamat wud have scolded him off...Ini ade lah suatu pelajaran bagiku...Seorg laki yg bername azmi kebykan dengki hati...ku harus mengenali secare btol dgn sesuai...Aku tidak mahu kecewekn hasrat ibu bapaku...Mamaku selalu memukul dan maki hamun diriku yg tidak bersalah ini...aku tetap redha pasal ku tahu hariku telah dan akan dikira suatu hari nanti...Mamaku yg menanggung malu terhadap...Selama 17 tahun..mamaku menjage diriku...tiade papaku disisi ku...Papa hanye meminta duit saje pade mamaku...Sukar sekali ku mahu tgk mamaku menangis...Impian diriku belum terlambat..aku akn mengejar keimpianku ke luar negeri...Aku jadi bingung melihat keadaan family ku...Certain things in my life shud be erased...Ku bkn yg panas baran yg dulu...tidak org sempat bebual...aku sudah memukul dia..Aku jadi gila bila terfikir kn nya...Mujur ade Farhan...haish..Hari pertunangan ku jatuh pada hari 17 dec...kemikiran ku telah hampir terkabur...Semua org disisiku tidak faham akn diriku ini...Aku benci dgn sifat2 lelaki skrg...bley pegi jahanam dgn diorg...I dun wanna care...Lelaki hanye memberi kata2 manis..Akn ku cari sesorg kekasih yg bley menjaga diriku dan fahami diriku ini...Aku akn bukti kn yg aku tidak mudah kalah...I used to remain strong...Sekian terime kasih...

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